These days

These days, I am learning there’s a difference between prioritization and abandonment. These days, I am learning I don’t have to cut you out but I don’t have to wait for you either These days, I’m learning I can love you I can’t make you choose me These days, I’m...
Lessons From Within The Void

Lessons From Within The Void

It’s been 6 months since I had to stop therapy. I moved cross country, We moved house, I returned to teaching dance, I drove cross country with Lily last minute, I had surgery, ended up with depression and stopped dating two people I was really excited about. It’s...

Reflections After Top Surgery

It’s been six weeks since surgery and I feel a bit bad that I haven’t been able to update you all on how I am doing. So, I wanted to take a quick moment to do so, and talk a little bit about how the healing process has been for me so far. Physically, the...
Why I decided to fundraise for Top Surgery

Why I decided to fundraise for Top Surgery

I’m a simple but determined man*. Who wants one thing. My shirts to fit right. This little thing, this small desire from when I was 12, has set off a chain reaction. One that leads me, begrudgingly, to this present moment. I didn’t know what a trans person was, all I...
Moving, into a new chapter

Moving, into a new chapter

I never tell people when I leave. After many years of people not noticing or caring and most importantly, me not wanting to be noticed, I’ve decided to try something different. I’m leaving Colorado. The past almost two years, people have been asking me; how long I’m...
Intimidation, Mental Health and Cuttin’

Intimidation, Mental Health and Cuttin’

*this is from a practice prior to covid-19. Don’t @ me I’m loooking up into the eyes of one of my dearest friends and I, for the first time I am afraid. I fight the urge to step back, to look away to hide, as my mind reminds me of all my insecurities… loudly. I, for...