These days

These days, I am learning there’s a difference between prioritization and abandonment. These days, I am learning I don’t have to cut you out but I don’t have to wait for you either These days, I’m learning I can love you I can’t make you choose me These days, I’m...
Lessons From Within The Void

Lessons From Within The Void

It’s been 6 months since I had to stop therapy. I moved cross country, We moved house, I returned to teaching dance, I drove cross country with Lily last minute, I had surgery, ended up with depression and stopped dating two people I was really excited about. It’s...
Tea Kettle

Tea Kettle

bubbling and gurglin
my rage boils
it rises in my body
mind over-sharpened for threats
pixilated visions of my world

Reflections After Top Surgery

It’s been six weeks since surgery and I feel a bit bad that I haven’t been able to update you all on how I am doing. So, I wanted to take a quick moment to do so, and talk a little bit about how the healing process has been for me so far. Physically, the...
For Blues Muse

For Blues Muse

I’ll do the emotional write-up later but for now, a quick set of stuff. Personal stuff! My other sites: About blues and culture , Support my creative work, read more of my writingMy pronouns: He/Him I am currently running a fundraiser for chest masculinization....
Why I decided to fundraise for Top Surgery

Why I decided to fundraise for Top Surgery

I’m a simple but determined man*. Who wants one thing. My shirts to fit right. This little thing, this small desire from when I was 12, has set off a chain reaction. One that leads me, begrudgingly, to this present moment. I didn’t know what a trans person was, all I...
Moving, into a new chapter

Moving, into a new chapter

I never tell people when I leave. After many years of people not noticing or caring and most importantly, me not wanting to be noticed, I’ve decided to try something different. I’m leaving Colorado. The past almost two years, people have been asking me; how long I’m...
Exciting news!

Exciting news!

I finally decided what I want to be when I grow up (for now), a renaissance man! (No I’m not running away to the fair.) So… When the pandemic took away dancing and then over time dwindling interest in online dance classes, I really found myself lost. I stumbled...
Don’t just practice!

Don’t just practice!

As much of the world is moving so much of our social dances to online mediums, I’m noticing an increase of focus on trying new skills, solo dancing, and practice. There are groups and lessons and training and world wide challenges. But, as an instructor, I’m beginning...
Intimidation, Mental Health and Cuttin’

Intimidation, Mental Health and Cuttin’

*this is from a practice prior to covid-19. Don’t @ me I’m loooking up into the eyes of one of my dearest friends and I, for the first time I am afraid. I fight the urge to step back, to look away to hide, as my mind reminds me of all my insecurities… loudly. I, for...